Why do I always put myself down?
In a world where I nearly hate everyone?
Why did I do such a poor job of sticking up for myself at school?
And let that Chinese kid (against me- his own kind) and fat kid throw racist abuse at me?
Why do I just let my days stream past me?
Why do I not write any job applications?
Why do I get angry about things that happened ten years ago in the past?
Why do I refuse to socialise and start a clean slate?